Jesus Is I AM

The Scroll and the Lamb
5 Then I saw in the right hand of him who was seated on the throne a scroll written within and on the back, sealed with seven seals. 2 And I saw a mighty angel proclaiming with a loud voice, “Who is worthy to open the scroll and break its seals?” 3 And no one in heaven or on earth or under the earth was able to open the scroll or to look into it, 4 and I began to weep loudly because no one was found worthy to open the scroll or to look into it. 5 And one of the elders said to me, “Weep no more; behold, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the Root of David, has conquered, so that he can open the scroll and its seven seals.”
6 And between the throne and the four living creatures and among the elders I saw a Lamb standing, as though it had been slain, with seven horns and with seven eyes, which are the seven spirits of God sent out into all the earth. 7 And he went and took the scroll from the right hand of him who was seated on the throne. 8 And when he had taken the scroll, the four living creatures and the twenty-four elders fell down before the Lamb, reach holding a harp, and golden bowls full of incense, which are the prayers of the saints. 9 And they sang a new song, saying,
“Worthy are you to take the scroll
and to open its seals,
for you were slain, and by your blood you ransomed people for God
from every tribe and language and people and nation,
10  and you have made them a kingdom and priests to our God,
and they shall reign on the earth.”
11 Then I looked, and I heard around the throne and the living creatures and the elders the voice of many angels, numbering myriads of myriads and thousands of thousands, 12 saying with a loud voice,
“Worthy is the Lamb who was slain,
to receive power and wealth and wisdom and might
and honor and glory and blessing!”
13 And I heard every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and in the sea, and all that is in them, saying,
“To him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb
be blessing and honor and glory and might forever and ever!”
14 And the four living creatures said, “Amen!” and the elders fell down and worshiped.
The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. (2001). (Re 5:1–14). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.
The Humiliation Of I AM


In my quiet days with the Lord I continued to seek Jesus in this place on the ground as I kneel before Him with my face hung low in humble adoration of my Lord and Savior, Jesus, who is the Christ. I wonder about the Holy Spirit and then am reminded that the Holy Spirit came down upon Him at His baptism so the Holy Spirit is in Jesus. But the air is still. So still. In the dead stillness of it all, I feel my heart hurt and ache. I cry out, ‘Lord Jesus! Lord Jesus! Lord Jesus!’ Knowing that His heart is aching. All those sins put upon His body. The tears continue to drip drip drip and as they drip on to the face of our Lord, His blood stained face, the blood is loosened. I put my face up to His and feel the hard blood stains. His face is no longer soft and gentle but hard and lumpy with the sand as well. But I do not smell the stench of sin. As my heart is heavy and saddened, just as Jesus must have felt, I throw my face into His neck and drown my tears into the side of His neck. And His blood, covers my face. At some course of this time, as I am in bed by the time I’m still reflecting all throughout the day, I touch my husband but his body starts to shake. So I remove my hand and know by the Spirit that this place is not for my husband. I am tired and worn out. How Jesus must have felt. All I can do is lay my face close to His and cry and cry and cry. 


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