I try to understand the people here but it’s so hard. You know what I mean. Probably not. We are so different. When I spend time with people I can know them. When they look into my eyes. When they speak of how they feel and what they love and dislike. Their hopes and sorrows.
What Paul must’ve felt. Going to a foreign people with habits that he did not have and get to know them and get them to trust what he was telling them to be Truth. And just got on with it. What an apostle.
When I was very very young, I wanted to be an apostle. I remembered the way Stephen died. I was seven and I thought that I would love to be crucified upside down. A worse death than Jesus. Bet you don’t know this. This is true. No one could possibly know the heart of another except God and He rewards accordingly. He knows all things. I suppose you are going to tell me that you did not ever want to be crucified upside down cos it would be a worse death than what Jesus had to go through. Now I realize how different you are from me.
I just have one question LORD. Why???