Where are you in your love for Christ our LORD this Easter season?
Me, well, at the cross.
We are all so different. We are called in different places. Whatever the calling I just remember one thing. That if HE calls you, then HE knows you are able to stand in this place HE calls you to stand upon.
This early morning I went again to the cross in my secret place with Jesus.
I kissed HIS lips on the cross.
I told HIM that I always kiss HIS lips in HIS glorious appearing in heaven seated at the right hand of the Father, in HIS chamber. So, what more that I should kiss HIS lips once more on the cross.
The blood of the new and everlasting covenant mingled with my tears. As HIS blood blessed my lips and nose and the lower part of my face, my tears became to Christ a sweet sweet aroma to the Father. Not many come to this place. We are not many. I’m ever lost in the world when I should be ever in HIS chamber and only there. No one can understand me. I have the guts and tenacity to make it home for all eternity. Even if I have to crawl there on both my hands and feet, I will do it.
I love to create. I hate to copy others. This is the real me. When I bowled I would create a completely new line to find the way into the pocket. And did. Now, I am the same person. My personality. My Father fashioned me this way. With HIS very own hands. Lovingly.
Is HE any different?
HE’s the same JESUS JESUS JESUS.
Song of Solomon 2:4 (ESV)
4 He brought me to the banqueting house,
and his banner over me was love.
John 1:1-5 (ESV)
1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was in the beginning with God. 3 All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. 4 In him was life,[a] and the life was the light of men. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.
John 13:34-35 ESV
34A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. 35By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”
John 14:27 (ESV)
27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
Acts 2:1-4 (ESV)
1When the day of Pentecost arrived, they were all together in one place. 2And suddenly there came from heaven a sound like a mighty rushing wind, and it filled the entire house where they were sitting. 3And divided tongues as of fire appeared to them and rested on each one of them. 4And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance.
Hebrews 12:29 (ESV)
29 for our God is a consuming fire.
So I wake up after ten hours of sleep and all I see is light and then I see this huge waterfall. It’s Jesus I think to myself. HE has been with me all night long in HIS chamber. HE took me in. As for the water, Jesus is the word so I must study HIS word harder. The water comes crashing down in a thunderous crash. More of the word of God. I need to study more and more and more of HIS word. Last Sunday there were huge waves beside me so I directed the waves onto my three daughters. More power. More of Jesus in our lives. And all I could find is the peace of Christ our LORD.
Actually, I had not lifted up my sword. If you have been given a sword. One in the spirit, you will know what I mean. There is a responsibility in the sword you have been given. Of course you try things out and what does not work does not. You know then the responsibility you have been given with this sword.
We are to take up the word of God our swords and use them. Not keep them in our hearts only but to use the word accordingly. The Holy Spirit who leads us into all things will prompt you in your hearts to speak the word out. Then you will use the word. For every occasion the word can be used to scatter the darkness. Remember, Jesus is the light.
I pray for my children, my daughters to have this such sword that I have been given. So it has been given unto me, it should also be given unto them. The sword of the spirit. There are dire consequences when you lift it up in the spirit realm. It so affects the physical realm. Be ye it known that we are armed in the spirit with a sword.
I had actually not known this place before where the LORD has given me this armor in this way. During the conference, I found myself standing in the midst of the deluge of sobbing bodies. The hurt and the suffering and there by which I was found to be standing and in the midst of it, I saw the bottom of my armor on my legs. I found too that my daughter was standing firm as well.
We stand on the ROCK of our salvation and in battle we stand like when Moses held up his staff.
It was very sad to see everyone crying but I want more for my daughters. Not tears but strength. Not sadness but joy. Not helplessness but hope. God’s strength and HIS power. No tears and no fear for living godly holy lives. To fight the good fight of faith. Never to give up but keep on walking along the narrow gate. To be fully armed with the roar of the Lion of Judah. Christ Jesus our LORD. To have not only the sword of the spirit, the word of God but also a spiritual sword as a gift from the LORD. It is already good that we are holding up banners. The gift will come or it has already. Each child will know for herself. Use your sword wisely for what is spirit affects the physical realm as well. Know your gift and calling. Know how to pray by seeking the word. It will plunge into the darkness and bring light into all circumstances. Jesus is the light. We are surrounded by the water of the word and the light of Christ and the power of the Holy Spirit like in Acts 2. This is our anointing. Remember we are dancing with Jesus with the anointing by fire of the Holy Spirit. Our God is a consuming fire. Know your calling and to where and whom you have been called in this place. Know your responsibility. We are speaking out the word of God. Do not draw the sword. Do not draw the spirit sword you have been given. The spirit sword. Raise your banners and clean out the courts. Know your calling and be proud of whom God has called you to be. You are fully armed my daughters. The power of Christ in you. When the sword is drawn there will be blood. If drawn within like the one before me, there is blood flowing from within to the out. If drawn out, there will be calamities. People will die. There will be bloodshed. The walls will not hold. Use it only to defend. Those you love and yourself. To stop the flood and the storm from moving forward. When you lift up your banner, the canopy over you, glorify the LORD in HIS chamber. Give HIM the kisses to HIS lips and honor HIM as your bridegroom. Love HIM like no other. Be a mother and love your children and give them all the blessings you have been given. For what has been given freely by the LORD is to be given forth freely to the next generation. It takes decades to get to this place. Open the eyes of your heart and see who you are and who they are and worship the KING of kings and LORD of lords. Use the wisdom of God. HE will direct your steps. Walk the narrow path that leads to righteousness and holiness. Be whom you have been called to be. Use wisdom. Bless those who curse you. For those who curse you will be cursed and those who bless you will be blessed. This is a promise from the LORD. The LORD of angel armies are always by your side. You will never lose your anointing unless you sin. Only sin can direct the LORD to remove the anointing HE has over you. Remember always when you draw the sword, there will be bloodshed. The full armor will with hold all evil. Roar like the lion of Judah. Christ Jesus our LORD. HE spoke the world into being. What is in the spiritual realm affects the physical realm. Stand, stand firm, in the full armor of God. All glory and honor belongs to the LORD.
In a spiritual sense, we hide our children under the wings of the Almighty God. The same prayer was prayed over me. An everlasting prayer and this prayer I pray for my children.
Last weekend we had a Heidi Baker Revive Conference and she fell on her knees to minister to the heart-broken and the suffering. She is the hands and feet of Jesus, restoring them by the baptism of love over them. They obviously feel the love of Christ, which they need in their deep sorrow and pain.
We are indeed blessed beyond measure as in our church not many are in deep suffering nor in pain as we are split into small groups to minister to each who has suffering and the pain is eased as they are loved on a ‘one – to – one’ basis. We do not use large groups but break into tiny ones to minister to the needs of those who are sad.
I was in the fifth row for the first time since I have been in the banner ministry. Of course I would make sure my daughter is alright as I would be constantly praying for her non-stop covering her in the presence of the Almighty God. It is no use covering her with me but with the LORD in HIS glory.
I had noticed that Heidi had the open portal over her. The light was more golden than pure bright white light. I have ever been fascinated with the canopy from Isaiah where we will all be under the LORD’S glory and HIS presence.
There is a blessing in every storm, I tell you. In every prayer a mother prays for her children to protect them from the enemy. She may take the hit but this is the job of the mother. Her children are safe in the arms and wings and feathers of the Mighty One. The Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Prayer. One of the greatest things you can do for your children to protect them in times when it is not safe.
This was what was prayed over me by my mentor. What she sees. Gold dust.
There is no grey in the vision.
I prayed a prayer of the open portal over my children. My daughters. The open portal forevermore.
When my eldest daughter danced on stage in the height of the song in various parts when the glory of the LORD was upon her and the LORD’S presence evident she lifted up both her arms and the canopy appeared. Now, this is my ministry and it is my job to know at which place my daughters are at. It is my responsibility. I am in a ‘need to know’ basis so I know how to pray and where in their walk they are with the LORD. I do not dictate but encourage and love and smile but this is serious holy ground we are talking about. The responsibility will be mine when I stand in the great white throne. So I spent all my time praying and watching and was amazed at her walk and her position in Christ Jesus our LORD. She is under HIS mighty protection. Her face was white and she was standing firm in Christ. In the ROCK. Securely. Steadfast. Happy and joyful. In the delight of the LORD. HIS smile was upon her.
In Christ, there is no darkness, there is only the pure bright white light that in this world is unimaginable and cannot be compared to Christ our LORD.
I will continue to pray for my daughters and my children that they all too in their oneness and obedience to the word, living in the Spirit, they may all excel in HIS excellence by which all have been called to this place. It comes at a cost and the cost is their time and their lives and their emotions and everything they have. Of course the cost which Jesus paid on the cross is so much more compared to the cost by which we pay, but, what we do must be in obedience to the word, HE will bring into completion and full maturity if we but by faith trust in the LORD with all of our hearts. HE will do it. All we have to do is to pray and live a life worthy of HIS calling.
All glory belongs to the LORD.
Been trying to get rid of this cough for two weeks but this weekend it got the best of me and I started a temperature early Saturday. It got progressively worse on Sunday and I have been to our nice doctor who put me through lots of tests and praise the LORD, my sugar level is only 5.7 and my urine is clear and clean. My blood pressure is above it’s usual as I have a temperature but with a bit of help with the medicine, I feel a lot better now.
I was in London in the eighties and I had bronchitis but was due to leave for the second World Games and went off but I am allergic to medication so I just took Panadol. But not that many as too much will also show up in the urine test and blood test. I finished thirteenth in the world not knowing how I did it. Thinking they must have bowled a lot of rubbish. You see way back then I would not have considered myself a bowler. I did not have the proper training way back then. It was only after that that I got proper coaching. So, do you think one can perform during a fever and cough and give the best. Yes. Indeed.
So, I suffered the weekend and now I feel a lot better with my medicine.
There are times I need to stay and wait until they know I will be fine. Sometimes they do not give me any medication as I’m allergic to it and they do not want to take the chance.
You see, before I left for the World Games, I took some cough syrup and a lump appeared suddenly on my stomach. The doctor informed me that if that had appeared on my throat, I would be dead by then. So, the doctors are hesitant to give me any medication unless it has been alright in the past. So I try my best to overcome whatever is happening in my body as the ailment might not kill me but the medicine will.
I’m not kidding.
Back to ‘Great Commission Strategies’ Lesson 12 & 13, tonight. Preparations for a discussion on Wednesday. Then one of the essays after reading Metzger.
Take every opportunity to preach the gospel in season and out of season. You can never tell if anyone chooses to give their heart to Jesus.
Great Commission Strategies
Use the method that best suits you within the standards set.
For me I take every moment to learn from the LORD. Yesterday Heidi taught. It is not what she says but what she does. Jesus came down to the level of the sinners and the needy and the helpless and met their needs. The people are crying and sobbing and it was so sad. Jesus came down to their level and met their every need. Down to their level. Here she asks us to have eyes to see the needy and the suffering and the helpless and hopelessness of mankind. This is what Jesus saw a…nd HE met their every need and began to teach the kingdom. So, I left the most holy place this morning. This is the gospel. Eyes to see and ears to hear the suffering of this world. Humanitarian aid and missions. Feed the hungry. She said that. Be Jesus to the people who are suffering and in need. I bumped into this man who smelt and he was shabby and he looked like he has not had a bath nor his clothes washed for goodness know why or how long. Heidi hugs these people in Africa. She is a one-of-a-kind person. What a calling. Down to the level of those in need. This is exactly what Jesus did. I completed Luke 6 and all the questions last night and will continue on to Luke 7 tonight. I will keep Luke 8 and the questions for after we return from our trip. Every step is God ordained. The LORD orders our steps. From the Holy of Holies to the New Testament. God came down in the flesh and met the needs of the dying world for three years. And like they clung to Jesus they clung to Heidi. Wondered if anyone got this. I’ve had a cough for two weeks. What’s the use of the most holy place if it does not meet the needs of those who are suffering and want to find their way home. Eternity. The gospel of our LORD Jesus who is the Christ. The love of God in HIS Son in whom HE is well-pleased. The apostolic anointing. Be the hands and feet of Jesus. When Isaiah saw the desolation of his land he was sobbing. All the beauty they had taken from the surrounding nations were gone in a whiff. Jesus arrived after four hundred years of silence and HE came in the flesh and began to teach the kingdom of God. After Luke when we complete it this year of 2017 we move on to Acts in 2018. The empowerment to do what Heidi is doing by the power of the Holy Spirit by fire. The baptism of the Holy Spirit by fire. In fact, they would never feel the love of our Saviour unless they meet someone who loves Jesus so much she would give of her life to serve HIM in the same manner HE met the needs of all the suffering and hungry and sick and needy people who sobbed and cried. So they clung to her at ground level. The lowest form of worship. Like prostrate. I get it. I see it. I hear it. So, I journal it. This is my job. My calling. Missions. Church planting in places where not many walk in the needy places of this world.
I was wiped out today after two days of the conference. Totally. So in the third service we watched on video the first service and Heidi spoke about going low to meet those who need this. She mentioned she was tired as well.
At worship today my three daughters turned up. My eldest the most lion-hearted of all having the heart of the Lion of Judah was so happy in spite of working all weekend from morning until night. She was far too tired to use her banners but only used them for a bit. She danced instead. It was lovely. My youngest raised up her banners and she has found such freedom in Christ in this place. It is surely a place of intimate communion with Jesus. This is the discipleship that I have been working on for the last seven to eight years. I have observed from those before me, the last generation that this is a life long commitment. Why? Because our children need mothers to keep them firmly set on the faith until they reach full stature, then they mother babies themselves. But still, there is no break in the relationship as mother and her children. We pray for our children. The prayer of the righteous availeth much. You all remember Abraham asking the LORD for Sodom. Even five righteous. But in the end there were not even five. Prayer can move mountains. God hears the prayers of HIS faithful ones whom HE has chosen and HE answers them. My children are huge in Christ. They are like David head on with Goliath. This is who I am because my teachers pray for me and taught me how to go to the word of God and seek God’s answers for every situation.
For my daughters it is ‘Christ in me’ for them but this ministry will teach them that seeking the LORD at all times in HIS presence and in the word will take them to greater heights when I am old and gone and they will teach the next generation to live in Christ.
My husband was so filled with the Spirit he got slain in the Spirit and was all wet. He could not get up at all. He commented that it was so hot and it always happened in our church.
I continue with Luke 7 tonight and all the questions for Luke 7. Need to rush as we are going on vacation.
Our pastor said we will be spending time with the needy from now on. That people in our city need to be hugged and loved. Of course we will all follow the vision of our pastor in unity in Spirit and in Truth.
What have I learnt through all this prayer. To hold up my hand like Moses held up his staff and the battle was on but when he put it down as he was tired, they started to lose. So, hands up in prayer and when I saw the waves, I rolled them over to my daughters. The rolling waves of the Spirit in the water of the word. The waves were crushing down. Huge waves. All in the direction of my three daughters I sent them. Holy Spirit power.
This is where we started with these tiny banners. Little. Heavy ones. So tiring. The new ones now are light and so easy to lift as they are silk. She is from our Indonesian service, right after us. Be like a scribe and keep a record so that the next generations will be able to reap from what we are sowing. The great harvest.
It was Heidi Baker’s second day of our conference. I am totally shattered. Worn out. So many were crying. It was heart-breaking to see them weep right in front of me and behind me. One lady is from China. She wept for ages. For a very long time. The lady in front of me sobbed. Claudia who was beside me was so moved to tears herself watching them. I took a video of them crying. I nearly cried myself as they were really crying. Their heart was hurting so bad. At the altar there was a man sobbing in the end after Heidi hugged every one. When we were babies at bible study we could not get past the door without being hugged just like Heidi does. It was a long long hug. Not just a hello one. Just like hers. We were all young. Little. Wee. We were loved. Even if we did not want it. hahahahaha So many people came from different churches. They were everywhere and it was packed. Still so in love with the names of God. Bask in HIS glory in this place of peace and love and joy and righteousness. Worthy is the name of the LORD. My eldest daughter lifted up her banners so beautifully. Claudia mentioned how beautiful it looked and we were both reminded of when we lifted up ours for the first time. Come to think of it, Claudia never lifted up one. hahahahahahahahaha Once she cried all through worship and I think it was our week of worship for two to three hours. We are this kind of people. Just like Heidi. HIS banner over me is love. Love never fails as hope does not disappoint. With no bible study last night I really need to get on with Luke which is two weeks away to make room for the other two studies I need to complete. We will be away for nine days in a week so there is a lot of bible study work to do before we leave. I always depend on my Logos Bible. When off-line it does not load the thousands of compacted books on my little phone.
to kiss the hand of God
on bended knees
I take each finger
kiss each one
was I not
the hand of God
I did touch
many a time
in HIS glory
on HIS throne
o but now
at the cross
on bended knees
then hand of God
dirty and shabby
is my KING
LORD and Master
never let go
not give up
in the glory of
the blood of the Lamb