I’m Safe And Secure In Your Hands O Lord, Jesus.



So I wake up this morning after eleven hours of sleep. I have not needed so much sleep for a long, long time. I suppose I’ve found my perfect patch in this heaven of all things. I saw pure bright white light. The prayer of the saint. I’ve come a long, long way to get to this place. A lot of things have happened throughout my life but I’ve really just known that God would come through for me. There is no place to argue with God. I learnt this since a very tender age when I could not, no, rather, not started to read. Do not argue with God. Just do it. No matter how tough things are. Gosh, I’ve come full circle. I was here as a very young age. The tender age of five. I’ve come full circle. Fifty-five years. Last night one of our pastors and his wife worshiped beside me. Now, really, Lydia and I have been worshiping for five years together. Beside each other or more. God sends people to be beside me and she has been such a blessing in my life. The freedom we have found to just seek the Face of Christ Jesus. The rest we have been able to enter in in worship. The freedom of just worshiping Christ and Him alone. The young couple worshiped in the same place. I’ve come so far. It’s been hard. It’s been arduous. A hard journey so I do not want to lose ground. The Presence of the Lord is in this place. A little is enough. There is not much needed in this place. Jesus’ Presence is all we all need in the end for God said this morning, My Word endures forever. When all things are gone, My Word remains. The Word of God is Jesus, the Christ. And He reminded me that the Word is a Lamp unto my feet and it is Christ, Himself that will lead me home. Back to my home sweet home. 


I can only suppose not many can find this place. Right in front of the Presence of Jesus. Standing before Him. I thought to myself this morning. Why is it that I do not need to cover myself up to the hilt. Yet, I’m covered. His blood covers me. He sees His own blood by which He purchased me so that each can arrive in this place of their own choosing of course. There is a choice. Where you sow, you reap. I do not want to lose this ground I’m standing in. I do not want to go backwards. 

I actually saw Jesus’ hand and a bird fly off it, once. 

So, how did my afternoon go. Well, you would not believe it. I touched the lips of Christ and I kissed it, one more time.

What does it feel to be in the warm embrace of our Lord Jesus who is the Christ?

Heavenly. Absolutely heavenly. 

John in later years started to get to know me and became a great friend. Though he may not have understood my visions and dreams, he found me a church when I moved to Scotland and got ladies come to my home to sing songs with me and study Scripture with me. 

I’ve had years of difficulty adjusting to different churches and where they place their importance. 

Some, Jesus’ death. Some His crucifixion. Some, His resurrection. 

The one thing I’ve learned, is not to object. 

Bonnie was in Kay’s conference. She wouldn’t study Isaiah 6, the throne room of Jesus. I had so much fun with Jesus at His throne-room. I could not understand it.

Some are called to places different from others. They are the other parts of the body. 

I’m a seer part.


If I were to ask all to come and dance with Jesus like David or like me. 

They always say, ‘No’.


This is what it looks like in the dark and when I wake up or always really.

I love You Lord Jesus.

Kiss, kiss, kiss.


Some are created to kiss the lips of Christ our Lord. 

Jesus is the way the truth and the life.

9 August 2013 alpacas-kiss

O I nearly forgot. 

When Kay spoke at one point when I was looking with my spiritual eyes, I saw the mist break forth. Then, I heard the verse about God speaking the world into being. 

This is the first time I’ve seen this. 

The Word is a powerful weapon.

18 September 2012 cross-as-a-bridge

 This path I take is not a popular place to be in but hey, Jesus is worth it all. All of it. For in the end, I thought to myself, and said and prayed to Jesus, ‘If I gain the entire world but lose You, Lord, … but if I just gain Thee Lord Jesus, I’ve gained my eternity, now and forevermore with You Lord as heaven is my home. The world is not my home.’

So, I dance. 

Dance with Jesus.


I’m just a-gonna slow it right down and enjoy the journey.


Be still.

I Am A Bride Of Christ


We had a great worship in the study of the Word today with Kay though I was so tired I nearly fell asleep and nearly dropped my i-phone. But many of us are like this. 



In all of this, I’m a worshiper of Jesus. 

I see Jesus and I touch Jesus all the time. 


I touched Jesus’ eyes and lips and hair today in worship. 

This is me. 

With all I am. 

I will worship You, Lord Jesus.

I’ve arrived full circle from when I was this very young child. I was here but then I took a wrong turn. I’m here cos I’ve been predestined to be in this place of holy ground with Jesus for all eternity.


In worship in dance and song with all of my heart.

Just Jesus and me. 

With all I am.

In quietness and trust. 

‘Kratos’ Power, The Fullness Of The Holy Spirit.



So anyways, Kay Arthur is in our church, in our living-room, teaching us the Word like she has done all these three decades to me. But she is live. 

Where does she get the energy at eighty-one years of age!

Surely the Lord has blessed her in the abundance of His power by the Holy Spirit. 

She taught it like she always does. Flat out. No holding back. What is Scriptural and if we do not live by the Word, we go to the pit of fire. 

The thing is in all these years we have all come to love God’s Word just as she does and keep it in our hearts and minds and it saves. Truly it saves us from our fallen nature. 

I call it the displacement theory. 

You take away all the junk of this world from your mind by displacing it with God’s Word. 


Eternal life.

She taught me through the Precept Upon Precept studies of God’s Word to dig truth for myself. To be independent of having to wait on others or not being full enough in God’s Word and sup with Christ Jesus in His Word daily. 

It becomes a life style.

No personal opinions.

Once when I went to the 40-Minute leadership study, John asked in the passage, ‘What is important about God for each of us?’

‘God’s Presence,’ was my answer.

‘Where does it say that in this verse in Scripture? Look carefully what God’s Word is telling you,’ was his prompt reply horrified.

Well, when we left my bible study teacher took me aside on the side of the road and laid hands on me so that I would not be rebellious. 

In the years that followed, I learnt for myself to use God’s Word as it is. Not to change it at all. I got equipped to dig truth for myself. Nuggets of God’s wisdom began to change me in a way that I have never been the same.

I thought I had ‘kratos’ power from the Holy Spirit. Now I know someone who has more than me. 



Kay Arthur was filled from the head down with the thick thick oils of the Holy Spirit with the Blood of the Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world.

You have got to work together in unity with the entire body and what they have they share with us and what we have we share with them. 

The prayers of the saints. 

We are all totally washed out but Kay is still going strong, in the Lord.

Right. I can do it. Follow by her example. 

Bless The Lord O My Soul And Forget Not His Benifits


O well. There I sat with all my bible study PUP friends and listened to Kay Arthur teach us, for live. For real. It’s been years. We used to listen to her on cassette tape. Then a VCR. Then a CD and then now a DVD. Got all of them throughout the last thirty years. 

First time live for me. 

We are all mature in the inductive study. 


The best observation worksheet I did was on the first two chapters of Acts. Especially the second one. I loved it. 

The thing is she sounds just the same on the cassette tape, or VCR or CD or DVD or on-line daily. 


I’m part of a PUP group so I’m in the group. We’ve been through hard studies together. 

I nearly died when our group leader decided on Deuteronomy. 

O no, I cried. Just about tears streaming out of my eyes. What about the New Testament. What about Jesus. 

It’s just about rules. It does not count for us anymore. 

I learnt staying power. Patience. 

Yesterday, up on stage I saw this huge cross. I do not usually go up on stage but by chance I did. It was in the Spirit. God placed it there. Right up on the ceiling. Hanging down. A huge one. In the middle. I was shocked. 


It’s been a tough journey. Not in a worldly way. In a holy way. There are lots of diversions. But I’ve learnt to ignore all the diversions now and just stick to Scripture. 

The very heart of God.

I’m in a place where I can dance and worship with banners freely. My heart. Study my little heart out. Gently. I’m in my house. My home. 

I’m allowed to pray till my little heart’s content.

I’m in a place where it’s easy. Very very easy. 

I’m contented. My mind is full of Scripture. Full of the study of Scripture.

I sup and I’m full full full to the brim.

Absolutely and totally. 


A Mist Was Hovering Around Kay Arthur


The prayer of the saints.

Kay Arthur came to my home, my living-room, to teach the Word to us and many others from all around our island.

So, I’m a seer, right. So what do I see.

So much oil on her from the prayer of the saints and also the Word of God. This is the first time I have seen this. 

The Spirit hovering around her in a mist. 

I have seen this often but not hovering over a person. 

The Word and the power of the blood of Christ. 

Soaked totally in the blood. 


Submission To Leadership And Authority

I tell you it’s been one of those hard days. I got my results.

In my twenties in bible study we learnt all about submitting to Christ and to the leadership and the authority we were under. I did not learn this the hard way. I got it immediately. It was hard. I was an avid reader but I’m like a wild stallion. I love to run. So when I got it, it did not mean everyone else has. So, we have to wait. 

We were all young and wild and lots of money to spend. A happy and joyful life style. 

As the years progressed and I got deeper into the Word, I learnt more and more and more about walking His ways and not mine and the things of this world started to diminish. It began to fade. Gone, one by one by one. 

One day my son asked me about my bible study and I told him that as we worked together, his homework and my bible study, we shared our time together and God was present. He eventually got on with his sums. Himself. 

I have been reminded time and time again to submit to the authority I’m under. 

We are not perfect people. We make mistakes. We get things wrong that we do not know. It’s alright to be wrong. It is better to admit our mistakes than to be proud and never get a chance to learn as the person teaching us gives up on us. 

There is nothing worse than a rebellious child. 

In some ways we are all rebellious children because of our fallen nature. The thing is to know this and change. It’s never how good you are but how willing you are going to change for the better in Christ Jesus. 

Life is tough today and I had my physiotherapist appointment and the physio said, ‘You’re all tensed up.’

I could have told him that. I did not tell him how hard I study nor how long. He would be horrified. I get to see the doctor next week. 



I’ve a long long way to go and miles to go before I sleep.

Our next course is ‘Preaching’.

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I’m learning things I’ve not learned before. I’ve been given a chance. A chance of a life time. 

My four new banners arrive next week. I’m still waiting for the one I ordered last November. I just ordered another one today.

I love worship with banners. My heart. Ministering to Christ and Him alone. 

Some girls are crazy for bible study and the Holy Spirit and worship and prayer. 

I’m one of these girl girls.


It never says in Scripture that it’s a gonna be easy. It says, it’s going to be difficult. I never give up. I’m not a giver-uper. 



The Overflow

My Refuge and My Fortress

91 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will abide in bthe shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say to the LORD, “My refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. (2001). (Ps 91:1–2). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.



I do not want to go backwards. When you taste and see the Light of Christ, where there is no shadow. Nor me. You do not want to go backwards. I’m a seer, you see. I see. I’ve had this gift since i was a child of five. It was imparted to me by seers themselves. Those who see Jesus in His glory and in His suffering. They minister to Him and they touched me. They prayed for me. So, when you see, you behold the glory of the Lord, Jesus who is the Christ, you do not want to go backwards. It is pure bright white light in the Presence of the Lord. All fades away. Only He remains. Nothing can be seen but the light of Christ Jesus. The thing is it’s so bright the first time I saw it, I was blinded in my eyes. Totally. But it was just a spot of the light of Christ. Fear gripped one night when His light appeared in my study while I was studying Scripture. There is nothing but Christ as He is so bright. 

So many come and try to take me backwards to the Law. The time when Messiah had not come the first time. But I would not listen to them as they do not see what I see. They do not kiss the Lord’s lips as I do. Not only in His glory but on the cross. My affections for Him, Christ our Lord, Jesus, is growing deeper and deeper as I rise higher and higher into the Holy ground. The Holy place of His Presence. Spirit. As I study the Word of God, pierces my heart once more and more and more and I’m brought down on my knees before a Holy God. His Name is Jesus Jesus Jesus. The Christ.
Jesus is my refuge and my shelter forevermore.


Rivers of Living Water

37 On the last day of the feast, the great day, Jesus stood up and cried out, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. 38 Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, ‘Out of his heart will flow rivers of living water.’ ” 39 Now this he said about the Spirit, whom those who believed in him were to receive, for as yet the Spirit had not been given, because Jesus was not yet glorified.

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. (2001). (Jn 7:37–39). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.

The Eyes Of My Heart Was Opened By God In This Study



I’ve grown up in this course about ‘Man And Sin’ in Global University. It’s opened the eyes of my heart about sin as I never really ever thought about it. I just lived in belief that all is good. Bad is the farthest thing that never happens mostly. Just, maybe, sometimes. 

As I end this course, I looked back and saw how far I’ve come along. How much I’ve learned. How far I’ve got. 

Today at the exams, there was a question that brought me to tears. 

God’s unconditional love that I do not even deserve. Not that I’ve done some big sin or is sinning. But knowing that I do not deserve all that I have. My good life. 

Right in the middle of the exam, tears sprung to my eyes and I had to stop myself. 

Knowing God more intimately leads into repentance, though not of sin, but of being glad for the free gift of Christ. We are not worthy. We are just filthy rags as Paul states. 

I always get moved by God when I study God’s Word.

We are humbled. Brought to our knees. 

If I could count the things I’ve learned from Global University these last three years, there would be hundreds of pages. 

And, how my church has grown me up. 

It brings tears to my eyes. 

Such is the love of Christ in my life. 

Not that I’m deserving of this love but because of Christ, Himself. 

Man And Sin
Being Human
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Theological Education

It’s really very touching when those who are mature grow me up. It’s called love.

❤ ❤ ❤

I Believe That Jesus Christ Is Lord

16 April 2013 i

Did you wake up to this?
Why the Creed?


Did you recite the Creed in Latin when you were young young young? Little little little. I suppose some things just don’t go away.

Apostles’ Creed:

Credo in Deum Patrem omnipotentem, Creatorem caeli et terrae. Et in Iesum Christum, Filium eius unicum, Dominum nostrum, qui conceptus est de Spiritu Sancto, natus ex Maria Virgine, passus sub Pontio Pilato, crucifixus, mortuus, et sepultus, descendit ad infernos, tertia die resurrexit a mortuis, ascendit ad caelos, sedet ad dexteram Dei Patris omnipotentis, inde venturus est iudicare vivos et mortuos. Credo in Spiritum Sanctum, sanctam Ecclesiam catholicam, sanctorum communionem, remissionem peccatorum, carnis resurrectionem, vitam aeternam. Amen.

So, I could go back to sleep and all I can think about is Jesus Jesus Jesus. I’m must a totally and absolutely Jesus person. I am I am I am. Not the I AM of the Lord. I’m just a Jesus person totally and absolutely. 

Gosh, what a journey. What a journey, right!!!

Cloud by day. Fire by night. 

Light Light Light

I could not believe it where I’ve come from and been.

At the feet of Jesus in the cross. Holding His hand as they plunged the nail into His hand. I held it so tightly. 

I’m here for You Lord Jesus’, but, then I thought, ‘You do not need me Jesus. I need You.’

Stroking the Face of Christ and His hair and being covered again and again by the blood of the unblemished Lamb of God. 

I’ve come a long, long way. 

Now, I’m at His throne room bowing low down down down and all have for Jesus is my heart. The heart of pure white light because of His righteousness. 

 Of course there have been many more. There are far too many to report really.


Today, this morning, Jesus wants me to post the Apostles Creed. The Nicene Creed.

Traditional English Version

I believe in God the Father Almighty, Maker of heaven and earth. 

And in Jesus Christ his only Son our Lord; who was conceived by the Holy Ghost, born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, dead, and buried; he descended into hell; the third day he rose again from the dead; he ascended into heaven, and sitteth on the right hand of God the Father Almighty; from thence he shall come to judge the quick and the dead. 

I believe in the Holy Ghost; the holy catholic Church; the communion of saints; the forgiveness of sins; the resurrection of the body; and the life everlasting. AMEN.