Bible Study

This is so me. I love to study the WORD of God. I’ve been really studying the WORD for seven to eight weeks straight and I’ve just completed the Old Testament and the New Testament. It’s a big feat for me as I’m not a Overview person but now, I’ve found that Overviews are possible for me. I can do them. I’m an elite athlete. We are focused people and we can just go till we drop. Literally. It takes time for us to wind down. At least for me. Once it took me an entire week and I got told off for not going back to the institute until the Friday. I just needed to wind down. I find myself in the exact place at this moment. This dam is so me. I love to read the WORD and all the material that pertains to the WORD. I’m a pure WORD with all the books that come with it. I learnt that even if I read till I die, I would not be able to know all of what the WORD is as the LORD is huge. So true I’ve found. I’m a bit concerned about the suffering that people are going through. We athletes do not suffer. We do suffer from aches and pains in our joints and muscles. Having coloured so many main point for the past two months my arm aches and fingers like I’ve played in a tournament. Normal for us as I bowled non-stop for years at end. This is it for suffering for us. I know JESUS suffered on the cross as I see HIM on the cross. So I know how much it cost for my salvation. So, I’m diligent in knowing HIM as I’ve been saved by grace so I cannot boast about anything but Christ crucified. I know nothing but Christ crucified. This is it. Final. In my bible study adventure in Global University, I’ve had so much fun fun fun. With JESUS. With the LORD. We elite athletes do not suffer.

Offering of worship to my KING

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I’ve been tired lately with eight weeks of bible study. My body is tired and my hand is tired high-lightning the important parts as I read along and answering the questions. My shoulders are tense from all the work, studying the bible. So, at church today I sought the LORD for healing. Of my hand. Especially my pinky on my right hand. It has always hurt when I bowled far too much. And it surely felt that way, then. I remembered how the breathing exercises helped and so I breathed deep in and out. I could have slept to be honest. So relaxed. 

At worship I was amazed at the LORD’S appearing. The Holy Spirit came as a dove. I remembered someone  saying that worship is only for our home. But, no, corporate worship is the best worship of all. We are all beating as one heart in Christ JESUS. Seeking HIS divine Presence. 

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How deep and high and wide and strong is JESUS’ LOVE for us. I really sought the LORD ….. as the Holy Spirit was present and small still ……. a cross appeared behind Him …… the cross was blazing with LIGHT …….. and through the song …… JESUS came from behind and walked towards me in HIS blazing pure white LIGHT Glory. 

3 November 2012 sun-shining-through-cross

The funny thing was every time we sang the depth, the height, the width and the strength of JESUS’ LOVE for me …. I started calling out in tongues like I’ve never done before ….. a new song …… a new tongue ….. so strong and so bold and so right and so true …… a true prophetic warrior intercessor …… but this time …… for myself ….. and I heard this song ……. an offering to my Adonai ……….

25 November 2012 JESUS smiling at us

But what was to happen at the end of the service with the same song … showed me that ….. I’ve been led to a higher level after my diligent study of HIS WORD.

I reached upwards at the height of JESUS’ LOVE for HIS left hand as I always ever do ……. and I touched the part where the nail had gone through like Thomas …… but my finger went straight through it and it went all the way down into JESUS’ feet where the nails were driven through …….. and through JESUS’ feet ……. my finger drove through ……. and up up up ….. it took me to JESUS’ heart …….. and HE said ……. I LOVE you ……… I was astounded what I was doing and the tongues was being spoken out with such passion as I had never had before …… and …… JESUS’ LOVE for me was with such the same passion …….. the lady in front of me was shaking and the man behind me was singing with such fervor …… I surged on and on and on ……. 

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I just feel so good inside of me and ……. well ……. I’m told that I just continue to tell my story with JESUS and those who get it …… get it ……… and those who do not …… won’t …….. but to continue sharing my walk higher and deeper into the kingdom of heaven with our LORD JESUS who is the Christ …… MESSIAH ……….. so there …. my story today ………. 

just saw lightning outside my window
there is no storm
there is no wind
there is no rain
I saw the lightning in the Spirit realm
HIS GLORY is surrounding me
I’m in the sea of glass
at the throne room of Christ JESUS

The Pilgrim’s Progress

To be honest. You see that drop of water. One drop of water. This is my entire life. In one drop of water. My husband says to me, I’m so …. naive of the things and the people of this world and what is really happening. I’ve no idea at all. My life as a child was closed for the first twelve years then in my teenage years I just roamed around my school and friends and there weren’t many people around to be honest. Lots of fresh air and hillsides. hahahahaha Then the beach in a prison compound. In my marriage, well, life just rotated round and round then when I bowled I was just about locked up in one alley. When I traveled I went nowhere to be exact. So this drop of water is the exact representation of my life long existence that the LORD has created in my life. My husband says it’s … sad. I’ve seen nothing, he says. Indeed, I may not have but I’ve seen JESUS. This is all that counts right. So, out of the box. Out of bounds. The boundaries. Out of my comfort zone. So, fearsome and unfamiliar. Insecure. Scary. Being honest here. Yet, in my failures and insecurities, JESUS still LOVES me much. To get out of this drop of water …….. thinking through these pages. The entire text book. hahahahaha I’m in a bubble. hahahahaha My greatest fear is people would be hurtful and cannot accept me and cannot understand me and it would hurt all over again. People’s words are so … harmful. Fear of people’s words. It’s safer in the drop of water.

fear cripples but saying this it drives deeper and deeper into Christ, so, I ask myself, WHO’S more important, JESUS or this world and all its enticements, it’s the double edged sword, God’s WORD or ………

10 “Be still, and know that I am God. 
I will be exalted among the nations, 
I will be exalted in the earth!” 
11 The LORD of hosts is with us; 

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (Ps 46:10–11). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.

 Dear LORD JESUS, thank YOU so so much for YOU as my possession in my life today. YOU are teaching me about YOUR holiness and what YOU are all about and how easy it is to drift from YOU. I’m humbled O LORD by YOUR Majesty and Glory and YOUR LIGHT. Unceasingly flowing down from YOUR throne of grace. YOUR mighty hand. YOUR shadow. YOU LORD are the Almighty. Me, a mere nobody without any security but just YOU. My ROCK. My Salvation. My only desire. My God. O LORD, I’m so touched LORD by YOUR Spirit. By YOUR grace and the knowing, yada, that ….. YOU are such a HOLY HOLY HOLY God and for YOU to remember me, to talk to me, to see me, to look upon me with such great favour, with so much LOVE, can I ever understand YOU or know YOU for who YOU really are O LORD, no, I cannot. For YOU are God and me. Like filty rags. Yet, YOU have remembered me in, no, before the beginning. YOU prepared for me a life that is not hard and beautiful and glorious in YOU. YOU being my sanctuary as YOU have promised. I’m touched by YOU O LORD JESUS. I really really am. Do not leave me nor forsake me O LORD. Be a fortress surrounding me. Protecting me with THY Divine Presence. Be THEE LORD my inheritance, YOU and YOU alone. Grace LORD. More more more more more grace O LORD. Never ever forsake me O LORD. Never ever. Ever look upon me and smile O LORD JESUS. Forevermore. Forever and ever and ever O LORD. Thank YOU LORD JESUS for THY LOVE for me. Amen amen and amen. I see YOU LORD JESUS. I see YOU. YOU are here O LORD JESUS.

 I hold today a nugget of gold. A huge nugget worth more than anything that ever that could be found in this world. I’ve found JESUS in HIS WORD. HE flows. I possess something this day. WORDS from the WORD of God. The HOLY HOLY HOLY WORD of God. Kadosh Kadosh Kadosh is the LORD God Almighty.

step by step

5  My steps have held fast to your paths;
my feet have not slipped.

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (Ps 17:5). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.

18  Our heart has not turned back,
nor have our steps departed from your way;

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (Ps 44:18). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.

I’ve finally finished the entire book, I did not finish the first course, I think I did not finish the last three chapters, and went for the exams, hahahahaha, I hear the words, ‘ step by step ‘ so I’ve pulled this prophetic art out for us to enjoy and I could only find this man singing part of ‘ Step by Step ‘. I firmly believe from the time I was young that everything has been predestined by the LORD and that what we behold each and every day of our lives. The LORD has already decreed it before the foundations of the world. 
Tonight I completed the task at hand and for me it’s like a mountain. I’ve made it up with JESUS. For those who study with me, know me well, all the years and know I leave the end bit. I used to love to be perfect but when I study I know only the LORD is perfect. So, I leave a bit in the end. To remind me. My fallen nature. 
Step by step we progress in our journey with the LORD. Every step of the way is a big step. A huge one. For any individual. 
When I bowled, the first thing we learn in elite bowling are steps. How to walk again. Straight. Forward. To the target. 
In our journey to our God, to heaven, we learn to walk along the narrow road. The one not many find. We learn not to turn to the left or to the right. 
In my sport, we do just that. The same. For optimum power. 
Seems we are doing the same in our journey with JESUS. Walking in HIS power. 
I want to thank the LORD for HIS divine Presence over my life and me every single breath that I take and if it was not for HIM, I would be left for dead, literally. Amen amen and amen.

I’ve no idea why this fellow is here but I’m sure God has HIS reasons, let’s continue and play ‘Amazing LOVE’

 In God’s amazing LOVE for me, I’ve taken one big step towards my PRIZE, Christ JESUS. And for this I’m eternally grateful to my ADONAI, the KING of king and the LORD of lords. Amen amen and amen.

23  I know, O LORD, that the way of man is not in himself, 
that it is not in man who walks to direct his steps.
24  Correct me, O LORD, but in justice;
not in your anger, lest you bring me to nothing.

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (Je 10:23–24). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.

21 For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps.

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (1 Pe 2:21). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.

Put On The Full Armor Of God

this day we fight
I’ll get my fighting gear on

war eagle 
this day we fight
I’ll get my fighting gear on

the SWORD of the Spirit
the WORD of God
HE will go before us
HE will fight for us
the battle is the LORD’S

here’s JESUS’ warrior bride
the full armor of God

get my war horse all suited up as well
and we’re off on the mount
ready to set off


16 April 2013 Holy Spirit

The Whole Armor of God

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. 14 Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and shaving put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. 16 In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; 17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, 18 praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, 19 and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak.

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (Eph 6:10–20). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.



This is so true for me. I just keep on walking and walking and walking closer and closer and closer to JESUS no matter what. Not looking to the left or right. Just my eyes fixed on my Saviour. Our LORD JESUS who is the Christ. This is what the last thirteen years with JESUS has taught me. And …… when I see now how far I have come along the way …. tears fill mime eyes. Cos. JESUS really does love me so much. Honestly. What I see and journal is really what I see. I have no idea if anyone else sees this at all. But …. by the grace of God …. I do. So, in the middle of my wee mess. JESUS blesses me big time. Thank YOU LORD JESUS. Who am I………..

Him Whom They Have Pierced

10 “And I will pour out on the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem a spirit of grace and pleas for mercy, so that, when they look on me, on him whom they have pierced, they shall mourn for him, as one mourns for an only child, and weep bitterly over him, as one weeps over a firstborn. 

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (Zec 12:10). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.

HE is really a HOLY HOLY HOLY God. And I do not know …… I was told what I see no other sees. By those who see. HE really is HOLY HOLY HOLY God. Believe me or not. I suppose this is the message JESUS wants you all to know. To know HIM in this place where in all this shuffle and pushing which has drawn me so close to a HOLY HOLY HOLY God. I remember being asked …. I told her that I wanted to be in the right hand of my God. I was barely eight. Why. I read it in the bible. I was told the stories and I too wanted to be like JESUS. If you ask me now . Fifty years later. I still desire to be with JESUS. HE is at the right hand of the Father. I want it too. Right beside JESUS. I suppose God, our Father gives us what we ask for. Only God knows the heart of a person. Only God knows. Just cos someone does not speak …. it does not mean … we do not love JESUS. JESUS never answered. HE was silent. HE just said I AM. I’m only HIS child. HIS bride. HIS chosen. But in the end. I’m HIS very own. JESUS’. I do not really like to stop and think. HE breaks us. The self we are. Then HE comes right into our inner-most being and HE builds HIS temple. HIMSELF. We are a temple of the Holy Spirit. No one is perfect. We are all free to love JESUS. HE owns all of us. HE is the Potter. We are the clay. I love pictures. They are more powerful than words. Only the WORD of God is powerful. Only JESUS is. The most powerful. The Name above all names. JESUS JESUS JESUS.

this is how I experience God, all my life, mighty, just imagine me, at five, looking up at this mighty God, and feeling HIS greatness, wonder of wonder, it’s really only always been me and my God, things we do, everyday things, anything really and …… days pass and years and decades, there is no time with the LORD, there is only God, HE just is, THE I AM, so, this is why I’m the person that i am, I take after my Father in heaven, HE loves me so much, have I been wiped out, indeed, but my faith and my faithfulness stands the test of time, fifty-five years and still counting, I’m tired, studying HIS WORD, but, inside of me, my heart, I feel honored that …. I can study, HIS WORD, I’ve fought so hard to study God’s WORD and to know HIM through HIS WORD, I’ve used to wait for years and decades so that I could learn, learn more about who my God is, so, I endure, for it says in Scripture, HIS WORD endures forever, all things will pass away, you may call me silly that I believe, but, without faith it is impossible to please God and HE is a rewarder of those who diligently seek HIM, in my silly little messes, I’ve survived all these waves of my Father’s LOVE for me, HE speaks and I obey, I hear HIS voice, HIS voice is like the thunder, and it is like the still small voice, HIS authority is without a doubt, HE is a tremendous God, my Father who is in heaven, HE told me to follow HIS Son, our LORD and Saviour JESUS who is the Christ, MESSIAH, and so, I do just this, obedience is the key,

HE is singing to me this morning and has been for days, my ears are not dull of hearing, I’m touched, I’m loved, I’m a nobody, but my God, HE is everything to me,

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